MY BLOG

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Apr

This year marks the tenth consecutive year our nation’s suicide rate has increased while outcomes for heart disease, diabetes, and cancer are improving!      We just celebrated World Bipolar Day on March 30th. It was the 3rd year this was done. Only the 3rd year? Strange to me that an illness noted in history, going as far back as Van Gogh and maybe even earlier, is just now being taken seriously?      Roughly one in four people with bipolar disorder take their own lives, that's a 25%

2016

06

Feb

Why is it every argument I get into tends to end up focusing on my bipolar and stability? It seems that most often any issue I have that needs to be discussed is only a problem because I am bipolar. I know others out there can relate.      The argument gets turned around on to my current phase or mood and then the problem needing to be addressed gets forgotten. I start to question my original feelings.      But wait... is it us? Do we start to question our own emotions and thus loose our

2016

27

Dec

I was in a dark place. Life was truly unbearable. Everything seemed great on the outside but on the inside I was dying. I felt like I was clinging to the edge of the cliff and a dark cavern of nothingness lay below. I was ready to let go at any point. Alan was struggling trying to help me and worried about my safety everyday. He knew I was more than sad and he needed me to be better. Even just a little. We both needed some sort of hope. We were both exhausted from the constant battle we seemed

2015

23

Oct

I stand on the scale and I'm up 3 lbs. I burst into tears and immediately call my husband. I complain to him about how hard I am trying and I tell him I feel like a failure. He replies to me saying "the only thing you are failing at is loving yourself for you". Argh.. He is absolutely right. Loving Myself!!! Sounds simple.....             I should love me, I am the only one who truly knows what a wonderful person lays within me. I just can't seem to do it though. It seems I can try hard at

2015